I miss you but I don't want you
I love you but I hate you
I'm lonely but I'm healing in the solitude
Without you I am becoming whole again
I lost my half, my twin, my heart
Becoming one and finding the pieces
Putting it all back together and seeing
It's more beautiful than before you broke it
I am a kintsugi work in progress
I am repairing myself with gold
The gold is love in every form
The love of myself in a way I have never loved
The love of other women's tears and understanding
The love of the forest, it's arms holding gently
As I enter the comforting green and cool
Where the holes were, huge gaping missing bits
They are filling with gold and sunshine
Long remembered security that I forgot
The knowing I am and always will be okay
Remembering gifts, forgetting the hurt and pain
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